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(14 KISSes | Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Friends Only [02 Jan 2011|02:36pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | web of night - t.m.revolution ] For several years i was a LiveJournal user. lately things have been going down hill there. its only going to get worse so i came here. =) this journal is friends only. i love to find new people to talk to and get to know. if you're interested in being friends please leave me a comment, ok? =)

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) CRAZY A GO GO [27 Mar 2008|11:09pm] [ mood | energetic ] at 4am this morning i drove to the ER. i could not sleep because of my back and arm. i wasn't able to even dose off briefly. its clearly gotten worse the past couple days. prior to the last couple days most of the pain and discomfort would cease once i was able to sit back and relax. it makes sense it can hurt like a bitch while i am at work because i am constantly moving the affected areas around. yesterday was my day off. i was in more then then before. i think i got it stirred up by fighting with my steering well cover. any one that has one in their car knows what a bitch those little things are. a four minute struggle was still kicking my ass twelve hours later. LOL. at the ER i told receptionist that i believed i had a pinched nerve and that it happened at work. she asked what did i do at work that made me think i had pinched a nerve. i said "everything i do at work can pinch a nerve or throw something out of whack." LOL. xrays were taken of course. i was asked if i could remove my ear rings. (there's 13) i said nope i can't remove them all. the hoops i have in won't come out. well not by me. i couldn't get them in by myself. LOL. doku put them in for me over a year ago. they have not moved since. LOL. the last xray was odd. the xray girl even warned me that it would be the weird one. of course when she said that i just blinked like a deer thinking to myself 'odd?' for the last one i was told to open my mouth as wide as i could. i stared blankly for a few seconds and then stated 'yea, that is weird.' turns out he neck goes further then i thought. LOL. i am not see my family doctor as soon as possible. i will most likely have to under go some therapy. if that fails surgery. therapy should be enough. i am to avoid doing certain things. basically every thing that i do at work is what i am not to do. LOL. got to work though. i went to sleep after 7am and woke up at 10am. well the alarm went off at nine but apparently i fell back to sleep. around ten Aki knocked and was like "um are you planning on getting up?" LOL. fifteen minutes later we went to work. i can not believe i am still awake and quite energetic. i am in a little pain. more discomfort though. i have pep though. LOL. a while ago i took everything off of the computer desk and cleaned it up. i am just rambling tonight. LOL my income tax was deposited. that was super quick. i filed last friday. it only took a week. last year i filed through the same people. its a program for low income. its done for free. last year instead of direct deposit i chose to be given a check. it only took a couple weeks or so by check. that wasn't bad. Aki chose the check option. she was told it could be ten weeks. i am not sure if i believe that. i CAN NOT wait for us to move. for over a month now all i think about are the bills. i just can't help it. the past couple weeks have been the worst ever check wise. i am terrified to see the next one. instead of getting 37 hours a week ( Aki and i haven't seen those kind of hours in months) we have been getting 25 or so. that is a HUGE pay cut for us. one check doesn't even cover the monthly bills. by monthly i mean rent, electric and internet. that is all. we do not have a phone. we do not have cable. we do not even have garabge removal. for over a year we have been living with the very basics. those three little things cost more then what we get paid combine for two weeks with our hours being cut so badly. the water bill is due soon. thanks to the 144.00 dollar surcharge the bill is over 300 dollars. the surcharge is a killer for low income people. how the hell are we going to pay that? don't get me started on gas prices! if we didn't have to travel 40 miles every work day i would not be as upset about the fact that prices are to hit 4.00 dollars. i would still be mad, but not enraged. LOL. we have spent over 1500 dollars for heating. we both had to get credit cards and they are maxed now so ....

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Every Little Thing [25 Mar 2008|09:15pm] [ mood | pissed off ] hello everyone. i hope you all have been well. i am okay. i decided to stop by to do a weekly update. i plan to read my friends list as well. recently had a nice break from work. four days off to be exact. technically it should not have been four in a row. the scheduled days off were Friday, sunday and monday. saturday was to be a work day. however, it was snowing early that day. as always it was one of the rare days that Aki and i were scheduled early. Kyo (my car) could not make it over the mountain. we had to call off. if it had been a day that i was scheduled to go in at ten or whatever the roads would have been just fine. work was kind of rough. after that four day weekend it was a bit hard to get back into things. my body had a rest so being at work today was painful. i have to work six days in a row. that is going to be very rough. my doctor has finally got back from vacation. i have an appointment next week. i am very anxious to start the process of getting rid of this pinched nerve. for the most part i only hurt at work at least. i can pretty much avoid doing what agitates the nerve when i am at home. its impossible to avoid at work. in my last post i mentioned that debbie had said she wanted to promote aki and i to crew trainers but was hesitate because we plan to move some time this year. i had also mentioned that i planned to discuss this with her. well, she decided on her own to go ahead with it. she had said that aki and i show potential and it would not be fair to not promote us. i was happy to hear this. now to see if it happens. LOL. yesterday Aki, Doki, her mother and i ate hello kitty waffles. they were quite tasty. after we listened to the B'z as we played a few rounds of hello kitty uno. it was a very amusing time. =D i am pissed at our landlord. he is a rich prick that doesn't know what its like to work your ass off and still have nothing. with our hours being cut so harshly we have not been able to put money back for the water bill. a water bill that consists of a $144 surcharge (RIDICULOUS!!). i had called him to ask if he could let us go just this one month without paying rent. i explained that we had enough to pay rent or to pay the water bill. it was not easy to ask but i explained that we also had no resources to turn to. our credit cards are maxed out from buying fuel and i am already paying on a loan from the bank. he said he sympathized but could not help. he has tons of money. the rich are always the cheapest and most often the most uncaring people. what pissed me off about his refusual the most was the fact that the previous scummy (you should have seen the mess they left when they skipped out of town) lived here for 6 months without paying rent and he also bought them fuel a couple times. they were filthy scummy people that obviously wanted a free ride. they got one. we are clean and have never been late on rent nor have we ever asked him to help in any way until now. with all his money he wants me to believe he would be hurt if he missed out on one month of rent. bullshit.

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Stained Life [01 Mar 2008|10:47am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | irony dance - LM.C ] yesterday morning Aki and i had a very morbidly sad start to our day. we had just stepped outside. Aki walked ahead as i struggled to lock the door. our lock is fucked up. that is why i have trouble. i do know how to work it. it just doesn't like to work. she was about to step off the porch. with a very odd look she said to me "there's a cat." my stomach just sunk. the past few days have been very snow filled and extremely cold. most nights are in the single digits or even lower. slowly i walked over and looked. laying in the snow was a beautiful black cat. it was obviously dead. it was way too cold. my heart just felt like it was torn in half. the cat looked so peaceful. it was just laying on its tummy. i do realize that death in this case was best. now the cat doesn't have to suffer the cold any more. at least it was also a peaceful death. this cat did not suffer from wounds or something. it could have been worse. i cried immediately. all i could think about was what this poor cat had been going through before laying down to die. even now i tear up. even though i knew it was gone a part of me had hoped that when i bent down to pet it that it would wake up. part of me wanted to find that we had found it just in time to save it. of course that was not so. i cried so hard. we knew we could not just leave it there. so i went inside to find a bag and a box. i went back out. this poor creature was frozen to the snow. i couldn't stop crying as i tried to free it. i got the cat free. aki and i put it in a bag and placed it in the box. we set it on our back porch for the time being. the whole way to work i cried. i just could not get the images nor the thoughts out of my head. a half an hour later we arrived at work. i was still upset. through out the day i thought about the cat. it was the saddest thing i have seen in quite some time. it affected me greatly. Doku's grandfather is going to take the cat down to his place and bury it. he has an area that has special soil that doesn't freeze. the cat will be buried there.

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Yep, More Snow [26 Feb 2008|05:47pm] [ mood | sad ] hi everyone. i know i haven't been doing good with keeping up here. sorry. personally i don't really have much to post about so that makes it easy to overlook logging in once in awhile. the weather has sucked the past few weeks. the paychecks have suffered greatly due to having to miss work a few times because the weather was so bad. on top of that business is still just so damn slow. getting sent home an hour or two early really adds up. last night the severe weather began around 3am tuesday. the severe weather alert is in effect until 7am wednesday. Aki and i did make it to work today. in town and on the mountain things were a bit rough. it had already snowed about an inch or more and had started to sleet. when we got to dubois i was surprised to see that the weather looked very different. it was just raining. i had checked the weather report earlier and i did see that DuBois was not getting ice or snow until later in the day. so, i am not sure why i was surprised. LOL. i had to take Doku's mom home. she was visiting us for a couple days. she lives in dubois. i was afraid to enter her driveway. as suspected the car got stuck. it was stuck for a half an hour. so tired of snow and ice. a couple times a week this area is hit with a storm. i am so tired of seeing white!!! at least march is near. Doku and Aki are ok. they are napping right now. poor Doku is in extreme pain much of the time because she has Fibromyalgia. its terrible to see her suffer every day. even on a good day she is in pain. i can't wait for her to see the specialist. i am hoping there are things that she'll find out about. things that can maybe lessen to pain at least. can you imagine being in so much pain that it hurts to comb your hair? so much pain that sitting just makes you hurt? i can't. she goes through this daily. sigh. i want to buy all the seasons of Lexx. i need to have them! all i have are the movies and the last season. not on dvd though. i had recorded most of the show on VHS. i had to throw 90 percent of them away because the audio quality was so poor that much of what i had was just unwatchable. i don't know what it was about that show. i just loved it. maybe it was the robot head being in love with the dead guy that made it so great. LOL. who knows. i just loved it.

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) LEMONed I Scream [05 Feb 2008|01:47pm] [ mood | frustrated ] "I've got a sweet poison cake, gonna be high Take me higher higher I've got a sweet creature song, It's a lemon, lemon, lemon & I scream" having two days off is awesome and rare. this time i didn't have any thing to get up early for. yesterday i went to bed very late and i slept for twelve hours. it felt totally wonderful. LOL. i was a bit surprised that i slept so late. i had woken up around 9am and thought 'no way am i getting out of bed after just five hours, besides i have two days off'! the next thing i know its 4pm. LOL. when you hear the word plague do you automatically think of the middle age epidemic? about 20 americans are infected with the plague every year. one of those twenty dies. its far from being the epidemic that it once was. still its odd to think people do get it. well, i decided i must have The Nation. i have been without my weekly dose for over a year. i just went and subscribed again. i'll get the 24 issues for just eighteen dollars. i can live with that. LOL. i CAN NOT wait to get the first issue in my hands. you can't understand how much i have missed this publication! damn it got cold in here. almost time to order fuel again. five hundred dollars only lasts us about a month. it really sucks ass. we are always dressed in layers and covered with blankets. we keep the heat turned as low as we can take. we can deal with sweat shirts, blankets. being chilly is okay. i can't wait until we can move out of here! these fuel bills are ridiculous. a month of fuel takes up almost one entire pay check from each of us. that doesn't leave much money for other bills. holy shit! the Pentagon today announced its request of $515.4 billion for its 2009 budget. (The Bush budget later revealed a correction – the request is actually $518.3 billion – the Pentagon "forgot" $2.9 billion of "permanent appropriations.") WHAT THE FUCK? President proposes eliminating food stamp coverage for more than 300,000 people in low-income working families with children...and he would cut 22 percent from the Low-Income Home Energy Assistance Program. ok this really pisses me off. that fucking man is basically saying let poor american families starve and freeze to death because he needs money to destroy... i mean help the iraqi people!

(3 KISSes | Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Well, That Kind Of Sucked [29 Jan 2008|09:49am] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | NEVER CHANGE YOUR MIND - loudness ] this morning i went out to start my car like i do every day before work. i noticed it was raining. i didn't think any thing of it. i proceeded to step off the porch. i about slid the whole way to the car. LOL. everything was coated with a nice transparent sheet of ice. when i came back in i called work to warn them that, although, i would try to get there i didn't really know if it was going to happen. honestly i had my doubts. just to get off our street would be tricky. there are tons of stop signs and no matter which way a person tries to go there in a slight decline. so the time came. Aki and i slid our way into the car. slowly we made it to the end of the block. we slid slightly at the stop sign. then came the decline that i was dreading. i went as slow as possible. instantly the car slid and control was lost. sideways we slid down the hill. we were headed for a very nice truck that was parked along the street. just about two feet from the truck the car finally stopped. i sighed with relief. there we were. sideways. in the middle of a lake of ice. luckily the car was pointed towards the alley. going in the alley was clearly the only option at this point. i got enough traction to move the car briefly. just enough to get the front end in the alley. luckily i still had cat liter in the trunk. while i was pouring it around my tires i saw another vehicle head down and i watched as it to came down sideways and headed for that same truck. it too stopped before actually hitting the parked truck. the driver asked if she hit my car. i answered no. she asked what we should do. o tld her my plan about going down the alley if i could get my car to actually go. she offered to help push if needed. after a few tries some burning of rubber i got my car to go. i stopped to talk to the other driver to see if i could be of any help. her plan was to go through the snow and up on the sidewalk if she could. i told her if she could back up a bit and turn her wheel a certain way that her plan would work. it did. some how we managed to get through the alley, and around the block to where we originally started. i had called work again and tracey said not to worry that we couldn't make it. she didn't think we would be able to. ----OMFG!----- "Jury selection began Monday in the trial of a woman accused of killing her 1-month-old daughter by burning the child in a microwave oven...." http://www.cnn.com/2008/CRIME/01/28/baby.microwave.ap/index.html -----Over night shift----- aki and i made it through our first over night shift. i must admit it was nice. i think that it being different from the usual work day is what made it so pleasant. it certainly has its perks. for one there is NO DEBBIE. so, there is no yelling or getting bitched at. we only had maybe 5 customers in four hours. it was easy to get around the kitchen because there was only five of us in the building. the night went by so quickly. again i think its because it was so different from what i am used to. i am sure after a few days of that it too would become tedious. there is one major reason that would make me work the over night for at least a couple weeks. MONEY. people that work the over night shift get an extra 50 cents an hour, plus being that the night crew is so small a person is pretty much guaranteed to get their full hours. working overnight would give aki and i each a couple extra hundred a month. now that is a good reason to want to work over night. i dread seeing the next check. we will be missing alot of hours with not being able to make it to work today and having been sent home early so much lately. being sent home early is what really hurts us. instead of getting 72 hours every two weeks we are averaging 52 hours. getting hours cut really makes for a small check and it also cuts into our chance of getting our paid vacation. for the paid vacation a person has to average 32 or 35 hours a week for a year straight. i'm not really sure when we'll hit that mark. ------OUCH! He pissed her off.------ "A British woman who ripped off her ex-boyfriend's testicle with her bare hands and tried to swallow it has been jailed...." http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,23102177-5012895,00.html ------Amusement park ride.------ a few days ago my car was bouncier then usual. while leaving work one day it became very bad. while going over the drain thing my car let out a very horrible and loud noise. it sounded like my ass end fell off or something. LOL. after that the bounce was beyond noticeable. it was very embarrassing actually. one tiny bump made any passenger nearly hit their head on the roof. while turning to get on our street my car rubbed. i knew that wasn't right because my car has always been high enough to avoid rubbing. after parking i went to check out the back of the car. i was a bit surprised to see that the ass and had dropped a good four inches or so. it was impossible not to notice. yesterday on the way home my car stopped bouncing so much. this confuses me. clearly something was very wrong to cause it to have that kind of reaction in the first place. suddenly it stops? how? i am so anxious to get that other car. i just keep hoping that Takanori will last just a couple more weeks. i should have the other car in two weeks. hopefully less. Takanori has made it this far so maybe he has a couple more weeks in him. *crosses fingers* -----Rebate package.----- i am hoping that congress passes this rebate thing. from what i understand low income people would receive and additional 600 dollar rebate (in the summer). it would also give businesses tax cuts. why i don't know.

(3 KISSes | Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Hello Insane Journal [01 Jan 2008|03:49pm] [ mood | chipper ] i hope that you all have a safe and happy new year's! i am very excited to have found a new online journal place. maybe now that i feel safe i will actually post more often! LiveJournal has pissed me off too much. i can't support or use a place that wants to totally disregard a person's right to freedom of speech. i used to love to post. with the way LJ has gotten i've only made maybe 6 posts in almost a year. i need a paid account here. i can't live without my moodtheme! LOL. i am going to go look at old entries that i left at Live Journal and post them here. why? because i feel like it. LOL. i figure since i am new here i might as well put some things up to give possible new friends a glance at what to expect from me. the posts that i import from LJ will be back dated. after that i am going to check out some asylums!

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) Time Warp [15 Dec 2007|03:54pm] i love this dance.... It's just a jump to the left. And then a step to the right. With your hands on your hips. You bring your knees in tight. But it's the pelvic thrust That really drives you insane. Let's do the time-warp again. for those of you that don't know what i'm talking about i've included this clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdu7xoHU9DA

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) [01 Dec 2007|04:06pm] Only In America... can pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance. Only In America...are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink. Only In America...do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front. Only In America...do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries and a diet coke. Only In America...do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters. Only In America...do we leave cars worth tens of thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage. Only In America...do we use answering machines to screen calls and then have Call Waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place. Only In America...do we buy hotdogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight. Only In America...do we use the word "politics" to describe the process so well: "Poli" in Latin meaning "many" and "tic" meaning "bloodsucking" creatures. Only In America...do they have driveup ATM machines with Braille lettering. Only In America...can a homeless combat veteran live in a cardboard box and a draft dodger live in a White House.

(Give The Shattered Angel A Deep Kiss) [01 Jan 2007|04:07pm] most of you have no idea what the fuck Maple Story is. let's just say its a very fun game. in my spare time i usually am playing it. its addictive. in the game you can get married which is just so cute. plus when you are married you get to do extra stuff. anyway... ...i got a maple proposal. it was very cute! Caium is awesome. we met in PQ (party quest) a few weeks ago and started to hang out. he is so much fun to hang out with. =D ( Want To See? ) i know that i have been abscent for months basically. i keep saying and actually planning on coming back to LJ but i haven't really gotten there yet. sorry.

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